Being a woman sucks. The end. I have too much testosterone in me to be ladylike. I'm too competitive and I like using my fists before talking about stuff. Shoot first ask questions later.
It's like theres this stupid dumbass bubble around me and I can't frickin pop it. Its ghastly and deplorable. I dont want to be a guy though, being a guy would suck too. Can't I just be... Oh heck I dont know. What doesnt have any gender... Bah.
Feels like I dont belong here. Here, there, anywhere. Maybe I'm just overly paranoid. Shit.
Haha. Were so tiny arent we, humans that is, I feel like an ant carrying a huge leaf running around in circles because my ant hill just got hosed with water. Fucking humans... One day... One day...



Bah. Its all the same shit.

Peas.

Bishop Allen - Charm School

Everybody's saying
That I'm not so cool
So I'm going back to charm school
Charm school

Here in my new necktie
Feeling so refined
Working on my handshake and my smile
And though I'm always late
And I can't stand up straight
I'm sure they'll find me charming in a while

Such a dainty curtsey
Darling little child
Let me hold your hand, keep you from harm
I'm learning everyday
I practice what to say
I'm working in the mirror on my charm

Every little lesson
Every gilded rule
I follow or forget in my own way
Those lovely afternoons
With all those forks and spoons
My charm school made me ready for today